Healing is not linear

Recovering from trauma

Recovering from trauma is not a sprint ( even though you may wish is was and at time try and make it one ) but It’s not not .. it’s a marathon .. and like all good marathons there are many aid stations along the way to help you stay strong till the end.

One foot in front of the other

That’s what I would  tell myself when I ran long distances and it’s the same with trauma recovery .. one day at a time .. one step at a time

Some days you feel great, other days you just want to curl up in a ball and hide.

It’s about going through the process,  through the steps in your own time frame.

Everybody is different.. some people have this wonderful ability to be able to get over things quicker and move on with a normal life,  they haven’t forgotten ,forgiven or stopped Grieving their circumstances are but they are able to move forward quicker than others.

There are some, that even an unkind word can be held in their mind and heart for months even years so they will take longer through the process of healing from their trauma.

You will get told by many well meaning people.. just get over it ?.. it's been so long now why you still like this ? , they don't understand and as hard as it is you need to just smile and ignore these statements.

They will also say that there is a light at the end of the tunnel but when you’re in your darkest moment where you feel that the only way out of the pain is to end your life, you don’t believe that there is light at the end of the tunnel but there is…some days that light might be just the smallest dot in the far far distance and it’s just blinking very slowly and then a day later that light might disappear but it will come back and it will slowly grow as you will in your own growth through dealing with your trauma.

It can be 1 step forwards and 5 steps backwards and this is all normal In recovery.

You will see that light grow and it will get bigger and brighter every day,  this process may take weeks, months even years, but I will happen, will you be yourself again ?  I think not but a different new version of you.

Those that are in the depth and darkness of their grief , pain and trauma , this words will have very little meaning and you may not be able to understand how or when this will pass , but it will in time.

Time does not  heal all wounds it’s dulls the pain and sadness and you will think about it less but sadly it never leaves your heart, soul or mind, but it won’t consume your thoughts 24/7.

Forgiveness is about you .. I believe you don’t  have to forgive someone who has hurt / Traumatised you if you don’t want too and I also believe if you do forgive you don’t need to tell them .. it’s about you and how you feel and what you need to do to move forward with your life.

Everyone is different and your  journey may take longer than others .. recovery is not Lineal .. be kind to yourself 💜